A Celebratory Cry (for the Living)

I'm a little stressed and cannot think str8 (I know I always have stuff going on) but I am working. My sister isn't doing well, she was rushed to the hospital for high blood pressure and she is going to be induced in labor either tomorrow or thursday. I'm just worried. She already has 5 kids with her husband and I can't imagine if we lost her.

would you like me to take over on notes?

you should take some space if you need that


It's okay, I have been in my head all morning/day

work is helping me a bit but just moving slow. Appreciate it. My Mom has high blood pressure too but is medicated. But it really is a silent killer and I'm sure it is not good for the baby

I totally hear you

my sister does too -- that's part of what apparently caused her situation

oh wow

Well I talked to my sister about two weeks ago because I'm worried. She is not healthy and before the baby she was getting kind of big and just eating out and stress at home with her inlaws not really the kids being a stress. But her in-laws really have stressed her out during this pregnancy and it has made her go through some unneeded stress

ahhhhh yeah -- you saw that clearly

certainly understand your concern

yea I'm happy she is aware and she was trying with her husband right before they found out they were having [their child]

So I spoke with my trainer and I'm just going to pay for whatever program she wants to do with him one-on-one and she can take her own pace. I will be here to support her and her husband with the kids, take them places and I am also doing the permit hours with my niece so she can get her license in a few months

Did you know last Thursday was national chocolate cake day?

That's incredible, Lakita

I really appreciate how you love your family

it reminds me of the way I love mine

yea, they are all I have. I mean I have friends but I really love my sisters, mom and my Dad. And although not the closest and they sometimes think I am silly, I love their kids

And I'm a single lady. I'm not building/creating my own family but it is fine since they are enough for me

In that way you remind me of my Uncle Clint - my grandmother effectively adopted him when he was a child, he was a foster kid in another house (actually a really good house) so he and my mom became really close

and he treated my sister and I as if we were his kids -- in a lot of ways it was like growing up with 2 dads... or at least exmples of black men

aww, sweet family stories

that's awesome


which im super grateful for -- because I definitely didn't get a playful spirit from my dad.

lol me either,

My Dad was kind of mean when I was a kid but he has softened up with age

this convo actually gives me insight into his [my uncle’s] relationship with us from a perspective I hadn't thought of before.

yeah, same with my dad

awesome


Yeah, that's a special kind of love (Dear reader, ask me about this if you want to know about what I mean here)

Yea I agree. Still have issues with communication with my oldest sister and some resentment for how she lives her life and it impacts her kids but I love her to pieces

sometimes talking to my oldest sister, I forget she is older than me and has lived this whole topsy turvy type life during the same time I have been alive

I hear you

question for you -- for whatever reason, that convo about my uncle and your sister really resonated with me -- it actually inspired me to pen a little poem (something I do occasionally that most folks don't know about)

If it's okay with you, i'd like to reproduce the conversation as apart of a post on my website to contextualize the poem and photograph

of course go forth

that is exciting

Clinton Cuff, the Most Beautiful Man I Know | Cleveland, Texas | August 2018

A celebratory cry (for the living)

You make me want forever

To be reminded of the joy of being a kid again,

To look up to you then as I do now,

to look forward to weekends

to look forward to mornings,

to look forward to waking up,

because the next day,

you'd

be

there.


Thanks Lakita